The Experiment: Day 209 ~ Because Today Red Lipstick Is Saving Me…

When I started my ketogenic journey 6 months ago, at 333 pounds, it was daunting, having so much weight to lose. I knew that the way to handle it was to break it down into what felt like more manageable goals. My first goal was to break 300 pounds. Having lost 25 pounds the first two months it was a shock and a disappointment that despite my best efforts my weight stalled for 4 months thereafter. This is not unusual for keto as the significant changes in the diet cause the body to do a tremendous lot of internal healing and the body can prioritize that over actual weight loss. It happens to many people. But 4 months? I was so frustrated I would cry. Finally, 2 days after I lost my sweet Tanner, I broke 300. Today I am 297. I wasn’t sure, at first, how to celebrate, but suddenly I knew. Red lipstick! I would buy a lipstick I had had my eye on to celebrate the new me that I am becoming, and despite the fact that I will be 64 the 30th of this month and I hadn’t worn red lipstick since I was in my 20’s, it would match my red glasses and give me a lift. In the throes of grief over Tanner I ordered it. Somehow it felt like a little celebration in the middle of all the sadness.

And this lipstick is the one I knew I would buy if I bought one, I have had my eye on this company for some time. It is an all natural, vegan, cruelty free brand who gives a significant portion of each sale to charity. Each lipstick supports a different charity. And their lipsticks are for anyone but they are advertised as the perfect lipstick for older women. The company is called Color The World and is actually based right here in North Carolina. My lipstick, one of a few different reds, is called Southern Red and supports the Rain Forest. And if you really want to treat yourself a lipstick is a fun way to do it AND they are currently having a spring sale which includes free shipping. The lipsticks are usually $20, they are on sale for $14 AND if you use this code — CW20 — you get an extra 20% off. With tax I paid $11.98 for my lipstick which is more than I have ever paid for lipstick but it is my celebration lipstick and when I put it on, well, I felt, I’m blushing to say, downright sassy! A year ago I got my red glasses and now the red lipstick and I may be turning 64 but I’m no “little old lady!” And I don’t intend to ever be. As I seldom leave the house and don’t really wear makeup except a little powder and lipstick when I go out I won’t be wearing it a lot but I had to go out to therapy and errands today so I put it on to go out and I was actually giggling. And my therapist laughed and gave me a High Five. Damn, I felt like struttin’ through the Costco I was so stoked. It’s amazing what red lipstick will do for a girl!

I am home now, back to being a pug mom, and a mom, and a grandma, and a gardener, and writer, and yes, someone who is going through a period of grief, and questioning life, and feeling lost in various ways, but today I am a woman who has lost 36 pounds and is sporting red lipstick and I am feeling pretty darned good. In awhile I will go out and plant bulbs in my pot garden on the deck and do the normal things of life here at Dragonfly Cottage that have felt too hard to manage since losing Tanner, but today I am celebrating life, my life, Tanner’s life, all of the life all around me, and it feels good. Losses come, and must be grieved, life is uncertain, and can be scary, but I am going to live while I’m alive and today I started with red lipstick. I don’t know where I will go from here but this is a good start and dare I say as I write this I am feeling happy. I’ll take it, I am grateful for this moment, and damned, if I don’t feel like I am looking pretty fine for an almost 64 year old. Yes, I’ll take it.

The Experiment ~A 365 Day Search For Truth, Beauty &
Happiness: Day 1 ~ Introduction To The Project
“Do or do not. There is no try.”
Yoda

Comments

  1. Love it! my little mommy has always worn red lipstick, and she has a small mirror behind her front door to check before she went out…all my life. And yours looks great with your red glasses!

    • Thank you so much Suzy. I felt shy at first and then I thought, “Well DAMN! Why not?” I’m never going to be younger again and I might as well celebrate getting older! And I love that your mother has a mirror behind her front door to check her lipstick! That’s priceless! Hug her for me! 😀

  2. Ha! You go girl! Red suits you, you look great! And congratulations on the weight loss, that’s a big achievement. xxx

  3. Red lips, new woman
    letting her brightness beam out
    unstoppable now

    !!!

    hip hip hooray. xo ka

    • Thank you darling Ka, I’m not quite sure how unstoppable I am but forward movement sure feels good… 🙂

      Hip, hip hooray indeed. As my dear therapist Helene said there will be these good days, and the hard days will come again and then good ones, it’s all such a mix of things, but today is a good one and red lipstick is so much fun. A little fun each day will go a long way…

      M. xoxox

  4. Wonderful about wearing red lipstick. Have you ever read about “when I am old I will wear purple.” Not that you are old but when you get old you can wear anything you want. Well you can now too. Glad you are having a good day.

    https://youtu.be/1jh4tYyhCho

    • Thank you Jean and yes of course I read that book many years ago. And thank you for sharing the video, how sweet. Yes, it was a good day. Such a relief. As my therapist said there will be good days and hard days, I must celebrate the good ones and be very gentle with myself on the harder ones. That’s what I will do. But it was fun to have a red lipstick day. We all need a little pick-me-up now and again. This was mine. And it has been lovely… 🙂

  5. It’s a great lipstick color Maitri and a lovely way to celebrate. Cheers to you!

  6. You are FABULOUS! ❤️

  7. Yay!!!! I love it, Maitri! Lipstick is the only cosmetic I wear and I like a nice red like yours. I wear a Clinique lipstick that I love. Such a lovely lady you are!!!

    • Thank you so much dear Marge, you know, I rarely leave the house and wear almost no makeup when I do, a bit of powder to take the shine off and lipstick, and I was kind of shy to get the red, but I so love my red glasses I thought it would be fun and it IS! It’s not like I will be wearing red lipstick every day but it’s sure fun to have it for special days and it really gave me a lift. Funny, I have other colors I like but red just DOES something to you, doesn’t it? 😀

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