stitched. And my Dragonfly totem is with
me to see me through…
For the time being I prefer to look at the back side of my hand rather than my palm and fingers that are all cut and stitched up. Stitches, no matter how minor the injury might have been in the whole scheme of things, have always made me embarrassingly squeamish, but they too have a part in the story. As a metaphorist I see everything in metaphors. The profuse bleeding caused quite a lot of blood to flow out, in a cleansing way, and seeing my stitched hand and fingers, I realize that I can be healed and whole in my own way, and, like my dragonfly tattoo, the scars on my hand will be marks of remembrance. I must remember to stay in touch with my body, to live mindfully in it, and to realize that there are many other natural treatment modalities that can help me ease anxiety while keeping me upright on the ground and at work both writing and doing my art.
You have been through such a lot, that I wonder if you sense the enormous strength that always sounds in your posts.
I’ve seen quite some people getting worse from medication against the worst states of mind.
When they were able to live without they also could get in touch with their own healing power.
I hope the same happens to you.
So glad to hear you’re starting to heal and getting off the bad medication. I turned 40 on Sunday and (accidentally typed “hand” there first, how’s that for a Freudian slip?) have been waffling back and forth between feeling old and useless and thinking “hey, they say life begins at 40, it can only get better from here”.
(((((HUGS))))) Hope your healing goes well!
I bathe your hand in healing light and see it strong and whole again, now holding firmly your writing pen, now flicking fingers upon your keyboard. Your hand is healed in Beauty…and so it is! 🙂
Blessed Be,
VSD
My dearest Maitri,
Thanks so much for sharing your good and bad experiences in life with us. It is good to share with those who want to be your true friends, who are willing to listen. I believe by sharing them to a group of loving and caring people, you are bound to receive their honest and sincere feedback together with kind words of inspirations and opinions. Sometimes, this in a way would make your day after realizing that after all there are still good caring people around out there who are willing to contribute their good thoughts, opinions and advice’s as well. And at the same time, we all will learn through each other experiences as a guide for a better life and all could also learn to avoid the mistakes already experienced with your kind advises.
I have experienced the dark and ugly past life as a child and even during my teen and as an adult. I am still going through many challenges which I believe by now many might have given up if they were in my shoes!
I have 28 cats and 1 kitten to feed everyday and I am doing it with my life saving!
The greatest love of all is to love ourselves first, I know that, but I still do what I can in my capability and power to help some animal which need a helping hands badly. Therefore, I have to make sure I am not sick or worried even though living in this insecured situation, especially with lack of monthly income. I managed to get few students coming in to learn English every Friday morning since it’s a public holiday here in this corner of the world, in the east coast of Malaysia. I am still trying to look up for job in the capital city Kuala Lumpur and in the meantime I am still trying to get more students coming in to join my tuition class trying to earn a living here. I teach them based on very good guide books.
Whatever happened in life, the past or the present, in order to be saved, we must not forget to focus on: healthy mind and healthy body because only with healthy mind and healthy body we can strive to do wonders in life even in the worst of situation!
I have not been ill for the past many years ever since I took very good food supplement religiously daily. I am not trying to promote to you this product, but it really works wonders on me. Imagine, I am taking care of 28 cats and 1 kitten and with an unstable income and my saving going down and down each day! I need to be strong and have lot of energies and tolerances and a stable stage of mind to do the daily hard work like cleaning their shelter etc even though I am not the right person to continue taking care of them!
I like you to be very healthy in body and mind since you are so precious to me and to many others and also because you are truly a good person with great qualities and with many talents.
When you are free, please just surf these website(s) provided below to get to know more on the supplements which has kept me so fit and healthy to these days. Beside taking “intra” I am also drinking a lot of water and taking milk and oats in the morning, and also developing positive thinking no matter what happened.
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I will always look at the bright side of life and will keep on challenging myself with whatever it takes to turn my life around for a better living! With God’s willing, perhaps with all the positive thinking I will soon succeed.
Buddha found that life was not understood without experiencing suffering as part of spiritual growth.It sounds silly to many who take this path and never seem to find an end.Eat this mushroom and it will make you small in Lewis Carrol often reminds me how doctors perceive some problems with meds, instead of looking at a more holistc approach as a cure.
As I read your blog, my heart cried for all the suffering you’ve endured throughout your life, and yet at the same time, celebrated that you had the courage to change what needed to be changed.
So many people suffer from day to day, some more than others. I enjoy reading your posts because your goodness shines through with each and every one and gives not only myself, but I’m sure others, much hope and light in their lives as well.
Keep the light in your heart, Ms. Maitri, for you are more than just a gifted writer to many of us, you are so much more!
May your healing be speedy! Blessed Be, Witchie!
Dearest Maitri,
How are you today? It’s a beautiful Sunday here in Malaysia now. Hope you are getting better.
Bill and Carol Colborm are now in North Carolina, I believe this a place where you are living, right? How nice if they drop by to give you a surprise visit at your lovely Dragonfly Cottage. Both are so adventurous and are travelling he world! They are lucky, aren’t they, always looking for excitement and new discoveries.
I see your badge up in your blog.
Have a beautiful Sunday and try to be gentle to hand too, don’t write too much yet, let it heal first, ok?
Much love and hugs from a friend in the East.
Oh, I hope you heal quickly, but hand injuries are SO annoying.
Oh, Maitri…. I cried as I read your post. I too, turned 40 in 1993, and a lot of the rest of your story was mine too. I never heard anyone tell it like you do. Maybe because I never heard another BiPolar person tell it? You give me hope and strength and courage.
May your healing be speedy. Blessings,
Carol
I relate to your story in several ways. Thanks for sharing it. Wishing you a smooth recovery. Blessed Be!
What a beautiful post! I can’t tell you how much I enjoyed reading this and how much insight I gained. Thank you for that and I hope you heal quickly 🙂
I am glad to hear it is healing Maitri. I know all about medications. I am on so many for my back problems and depression it’s unreal. But my Dr;’s do moderate them very well and so do I. I also have high blood pressure so I have to take that as well. But I have my days where the meds hit me just right and I have to go lay down. I hope you get to feeling better very soon my love.
God bless,
Jodi
Hi Maitri,
How are you today? Hope you are getting better. I just want to break to you the good news. God is great, I was dead worried about how to go on feeding my cats including so many abandoned cats with me. In fact, today like it or not, I picked up another tiny kitten thrown near my house. The good news is since my saving is down at a very critical stage, suddenly with God’s grace, I got a job offer in the capital city, Kuala Lumpur meaning sooner or later, I will be moving back there for good! I will still rent this house and hire two reliable people to look after my cats at the shelter, only one will come daily and if the other is sick, the other one will come to feed my cats, empty their litters and clean the shelter & so on. I will only rent a room first in KL and when I am there I will find a good place myself before I bring in all my belongings and take my cats with me, some I have to give people and only at the last resort I will send the balance of the rescued cats to the shelter home because I need to stay in an apartment for safety with safety guard at the front gate as you I am living alone. It is dangerous to rent a house in KL these day if staying alone!
Hope you will be back to normal and your hand fully cured soon! Wishing you all the good luck, God bless you always.
Hugs always,
Beautifully written. Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and bright outlook on your future.
I have just recently had a son prescribed Prozac and looking through my medical books was a bit concerned at the possible side effects. I, too, never took anything harmful during my pregnancies or childbirth. I had all four children natural not wanting to introduce anything into their fragile systems. I write at a number of sites, and researched and wrote an article about alternative medicine for stress and anxiety disorders. He has found these helpful and has decided against the prescribed meds.
I love your blog. It is beautiful, honest, inspiring… Thanks for visiting mine.
Take care & God bless.