Tonight I need to tell you that there is nothing that can hold you back. No Thing.
Tonight I need to tell you that everything you are afraid of is just like the monster under the bed when you were a little child, truly scary, but not real.
Tonight I need to tell you that you can grow big enough to shine a light into all the dark scary corners of your life and see them for what they really are, perhaps obstacles to overcome, but not the giant boulders in the road that you have imagined will stop you for all time. Tonight I want you to imagine those boulders and watch them turn into dust bunnies like the ones under your bed with the monsters. No matter how big they are — POOF — you can blow them away. Do that, do that now, close your eyes, imagine the biggest, scariest, darkest, most frightening thing that is holding you back in your life, see it there before you, seemingly solid, and then watch it turn into tiny, miniscule particles. It is not solid, it cannot stop you, take a deep breath — POOF — blow it away.
Tonight I need you to know that everything you are thinking and feeling about how this might be true for other people but that YOUR problems really are insurmountable, that no one really understands, that that boulder really is bigger than the grand canyon and just as solid and immovable, I want you to know that that is not true. Tonight I want you to know that you can move mountains, that it has been in you all along, hidden behind a wall that was built brick by brick, since you were a child, by all of those around you who told you that you were less than, that you were wrong, that you couldn’t possibly _________, that you would never be able to…. and I want you to know that every single thing that those people told you came from the fear they held inside themselves. I want you to see, to feel that wall crumbling. You CAN do it, you can do ALL of it, any of it, you are so much stronger than you ever knew.
Tonight I want you to write down ten things that you have held inside of you since you were a little child, things you longed for, dreamed about, but didn’t dare to imagine were possible, no matter how large or small they might seem, and I want you — even if you have to make it up and feel like what you are saying is outrageous and impossible — I want you to write after each one of these ten things, “Oh it feels so good that I can finally have, do, or be every single one of those ten things. No “impossible,” only “I’m possible.”
Tonight I needed you to feel this, to know this, to gather all of this to your heart. Take a deep breath, let it out slowly, and tomorrow begin to see each and every thing on that list come true, or come true in a way that delights you and lights you up today. And every time a big scary monster starts growling under your bed, every time a gigantic boulder (whatever form that might take in your life) rolls into the road in front of you to stop you, see it as what it is, something made up of tiny particles that can be blown away.
Let’s do it now. Imagine the biggest obstacle you think that you have in your life right now. Now close your eyes and imagine it breaking down into a million tiny particles. Take a deep breath and Bllllooooooooowwwwwwww it away. POOF! Now remember that. Every single thing that seems to come between you and your dreams, everything that holds you back, that makes your heart hurt, that frightens you, it is all a million particles suspended in the air and it doesn’t have a chance against one big, brave, burst of air that starts way down deep inside of you and EXPLODES out of you up into the air like a giant helium balloon released into the sky.
Are you ready? See that thing that holds you back. Close your eyes. Watch it, behind your closed eyelids, disintegrate into a billion pieces so small they cannot be seen with the naked eye, and then blow with everything you have in you.
No more monsters under the bed.
No more boulders holding you back.
Nothing you can’t handle. I promise.
I just needed to tell you that tonight…
From, “The Deep Listening Soul Guidebook,”
copyright 2012-2013, Maitri Libellule