This morning I had to take my beloved Delilah into the vet and have her put to sleep. She crossed over in my arms with me holding her and kissing her and singing, as I do when a little one goes, “Somewhere Over The Rainbow.” It seemed that the eye injury she was being treated for was a separate issue, something sudden, acute, systemic, they don’t know what happened but she was bleeding in her eyes and in horrible pain. She suddenly went blind and deaf in an instant. It is the worst, most heartbreaking thing. There simply are no words. And I don’t have it in me to say any more.
Thank you all for your love, prayers and support. Little Pugsley and I must go on alone now. Please hold him in your thoughts. I lost Tanner in April, and now Delilah. I can’t bear another loss.
Oh My Dear God, No!!!!!! No!!!
Oh Maitri, such sad news I feel this pain my eyes are full of tears it hurts me to my soul and I can’t say things will be fine, because we both know all to well the truth… in time we have no choice but to accept but for now…… we can’t see that horizon.
I so wish I were closer I would be there with you to just sit in silence and keep you company. I know that people say that they are in a better place, but I sure as hell don’t want to think or hear that. You will hurt as you know for a long time and if I could just take a bit of that and carry it for you I would. My prayers and Love I send your way, I know you will read this through many tears. You did the best you could for her but in the end and I do believe this… ( All Dogs 🐕 Go to Heaven). So very sorry for this Huge loss. I know taking on an elderly Dog means that we often loose them earlier than normally we would… but just think she had the BEST MOMMY (You) and what would have been if it had not been for you. You, were her Angel and now she is yours….. forever she is with you…
Dear Maitri, I’m very sorry to hear this, it’s heartbreaking. Delilah had such a good life with you, she touched everyone’s hearts. Sending so much love to you and little Pugsley. xxx
My Dear Maitri,
I was so sad when I read your news this morning. I know how devastated you are and how broken you feel. I know there are no words to bring comfort, so I will just tell you that I love you and know that you gave all you had to your precious Delilah. I am so heartbroken for you.
I know you are not ready to talk, but when you are, I will be here. We can sit together in silence if that is what you need. I am so very sorry, my friend. So very sorry.
Sending you love and light for this very difficult time.
I love you.
Prayer*
by J.S.Hoyland
Teach us, o Spirit, to trust thee with life and with death,
And (though this is harder by far)
with the life and death of those
that are dearer to us than our life.
Teach us stillness and confident peace
in thy perfect will,
deep calm of soul, and content
in what thou wilt do with these lives
thou hast given.
Teach us to wait and be still,
To rest in thyself,
to hush this clamorous anxiety,
To lay in thine arms all this wealth
thou hast given.
Thou lovest these souls that we love
With a love as far surpassing our own
As the glory of noon surpasses the gleam of a candle.
Therefore will we be still, and trust in thee.
*I’ve fiddled with this a little so I could feel genuine while using it as a prayer, because I’m not a Christian but do believe there is a Great Spirit. This “prayer” comforted me during the terminal illness of my mother, and I hope it comforts you in the loss of your beloved little friend. So sorry to hear it. You did the right thing to ease her out of her pain. It’s what all of us would like to be able to do for a friend and loved one, difficult as it is. xoxoxo
-Kate
Such a hard day. There is nothing that I can write to help you with your sorrow except love.
Sending lots.
I don’t even have words. I still feel stunned by this news. I’m worried about you and feel sad for you for all you’ve been through. You’re not alone. I am here. I love you 💕❤️
Thank you all for your kind notes. I don’t have it in me just now to answer everyone. But I love you, I appreciate you, and I have taken your kind words to heart. I am struggling. I am heartbroken. I am just trying to hold on.