This morning I woke up to a nightmare! I turned my computer on, it came on okay, there was a picture on the desktop with the date and time. Now what I have to do is click on the picture and the log-in screen comes up, I put in my password and then am taken to the desktop. The log-in screen will not come up. No way, no how. I tried numerous times. I shut everything down and unplugged the computer, took the power cord completely off. Put it back on and plugged it in. Same thing, comes back to the picture on the screen but will NOT go to the log-in screen. There is simply no way to get in.
To say that I did not handle this well would be an understatement. My whole world is on this computer. Everything. Of course things are backed up to Dropbox and such but the thing is I need to do my work, and more to the point, when you live alone, rarely leave your house, and your whole world opens up each day as you sign onto the computer, and you rely on it, for connection, for your mental well being (I had not realized just how much this was true until this morning, sigh…), for communion, to not feel shut off from the rest of the world, not being able to get online, or simply to the desktop at all, is terrifying (It was for me.). I went from panicking, to crying, and by the time my daughter just happened to call me I was, I am embarrassed to admit, hysterical. I had to take a xanax which I no longer do. I was beyond a mess.
As Rachel and I talked she suggested someone I might call, and told me that we would get things figured out. My HP desktop is several years old and I haven’t had any problems with it but the computer tech that I just spoke to said it might be going out. I don’t have money to buy a new computer. Rachel said we would figure it out one way or another, she said I simply cannot be without a computer.
As we spoke I remembered that I have an old laptop. I haven’t used it since the fire. It did get pulled out that night and was still working but the battery went out, you have to keep it plugged in with the power cord. We decided I should try that. It’s what I am using right now. I don’t know how long it will last, it is several years old, slower than my desktop, the mouse freezes up and I have to shut the computer down and bring it back up again to get it to work, but after spending hours updating all kinds of things it is working for now as long as it is plugged in. I am sitting on the precipice of maybe having no computer at all and I am scared witless and so upset I can’t begin to tell you. A dear friend who was a computer tech is going to come over today or tomorrow and see if he can figure something out. I need a miracle. Without a computer I have no life to speak of. I am at a loss.
If for some reason I do not get a blog post up one day — and I pray that that won’t happen — it will be because of computer issues. Please hold a good thought for me. I’m signing off here because frankly I’m just too upset to write more right now. This is not a good day folks.
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microsoft did an update 2 days ago .. my mom also has a hp laptop. everytime they do an update she is on the phone with hp for hours on end … it stresses her out to no end .. she is 83 .. but in the end she figures it out with hp help. so hang in there
Julia I have tried all day to get this fixed to no avail. The man who was supposed to help me can’t come until tomorrow, hopefully he will be able to get it fixed then. Bless your 83 year old mother for hanging in!!!
I’m so sorry about your computer problems, this is the last thing you needed! I know how bad I feel if something goes wrong with my PC. Sending lots of love… it will be fixed, one way or another it’ll be fixed in the end, you won’t be left without your lifeline. xxx
Thanks Jenny honey, it has been a ZOO of a day. I have spent the entire day dealing with computer problems and the last 2 hours on the phone with TMobile with cell phone issues!!!! Arrrggghhhhh!! What little bit of my mind I had left is GONE!!!!!
gees louise, maitri! if it’s not one d*mn thing it’s another. while my computer isn’t my only lifeline, it is key to my being able to write and compile manuscripts, and of course do-email, and post on facebook, and all the rest. We count on these machines that 30 years ago (or more?) we didn’t know we needed to survive (same with cell phones).
I trust that the tech person will be able to give you a hand up, and make things work again. Sometimes it’s very simple even though it doesn’t seem so when we personally have no idea how to fix it. I’m crossing my fingers for you sweet woman
are you able to do email OK???? with your old laptop??
xo
ka
OHMYGOD KATYA!!!!!
I wrote a LONG answer to you and the computer froze and I lost it. I am LOSINGMYFRIGGINMIND!!!!
Not only did I spend the whole day dealing with computer issues which are still not resolved I spent 2 hours tonight on the phone with TMobile dealing with cell phone issues.
I am FRIED! My brains are gone. I CAN do email here but who has the time? It is 9 and I just finally made scrambled eggs for dinner. I wish I could say more but I just don’t have it in me. I love you. But I don’t have a single brain cell left to accomplish ANYTHING…
Sigh…
Sheesh…
M.
Well Crap!!! I hear you Maitri. Yes, we do rely so much on our computers and it is stunning to our system when the darn things don’t work. I will definitely hold intention for you that this gets resolved one way or another and that your laptop covers your basic needs until it is sorted out. <3
Thank you Joan honey, as I said above I not only spent an entire day with computer issues, which are still not resolved, I spent 2 hours on the phone tonight with TMobile trying to resolve cell phone issues.
Is Mercury Retrograde??? I am fried. I QUIT for tonight. Ugh!
I HEAR you.
I SEE you.
I comprehend.
You are SO LOVED.
Thank you dear Trece, you are so dear. Tonight, as you can read from the comments above, is the end of a harrowing day with things still not resolved. I am just eating a little dinner after 9pm. I don’t have a single brain cell left. Oy! I hope tomorrow is a better day. I appreciate you being here sweetie!
Dear Maitri, my heart goes out to you with BIG HUGS. I would be out of my mind too if this was me. I can so relate to the stress of not having my computer working. And to top it off to be on the phone about your cell? Wow! I hope tomorrow is better and that you get your computer working again. I send you LOVE and HUGS and lots of empathy.
Love, Jean
Thank you Jean honey, I love you and appreciate all that you have said, I wanted to acknowledge your dear post but I am getting offline now. I can’t take another minute. Ugh! I hope to God these issues get resolved tomorrow. I am SHOT!!!!!
Sending you love and a hug. Can you ask the angels to send me a MIRACLE? This is the second time I have tried to answer you. The first time the computer froze and I had to restart, this keeps happening. I just can’t take anymore. OY!
I am visualizing all your angels surrounding you for peace, for technical problems and everything else you need to be healed!
Thank you so much Jean, I appreciate that so much. I’m so glad to have this old laptop to tide me over for basic things but I’m lost without my big desktop, it’s “Home” to me. I hope George can get here today and help me. Your angel prayers are much appreciated…
So sorry you had to undergo those issues, Maitri. I’ve just asked the Lord to send you peace and comfort. You already have His and our love. Hugs, Memarge 🙂
Thank you so much dear Marge, I really need the prayers right now, it means a lot to me. Bless you honey…