The Experiment – A 365 Day Search For Happiness

My gorgeous family! Son Aaron with wife Stephanie, oldest grandson Lucas holding youngest grandson Altas, daughter Rachel with grandsons Pierce and Silas, daughter Jenny with husband Andrew. (Lucas is Rachel’s son, Atlas is Aaron and Stephanie’s baby, Pierce and Silas are Jen and Andrew’s boys)

Well, I mean, just look at them!

(If I could use emojis in this post there would be a string of every colored heart under the rainbow and all kinds of smiley faces!)

As I wrote yesterday when I said I got to FaceTime with them all all of the siblings and their families get together each 4th of July week at one another’s houses. Currently they are all at Aaron and Stephanie’s house in Atlanta. And my heart is right there with them.

I write a lot about the struggles I have had in my life, but more than anything I want to tell you how deeply blessed I know that I am. Having my children was the best and happiest and brightest and most wonderful thing in my life. And we are especially blessed to love their partners in life so much too, and oh, the grandbabies! Four grandsons, how could there possibly be anything better? I am over the moon in love with all of them.

I think, more than anything, I want to make sense of my life for them, I want to heal myself and leave a legacy for them that is about their mother triumphing over adversity and making something of her life, I want mine to be a story that is about being able to prevail over whatever life hands us, I want them to see and to know that it is never too late to be what we might have been. I want the gift that I give them to be that of a mother at peace, knowing how blessed she is, and appreciating the life she has had because despite it all they were the stars in the firmament of her life and no matter how dark the sky the fact that they were there, shining so brightly, was what always brought her through. This is true and I want them to always be able to hold that knowledge in their hearts.

Today I don’t need to say a lot here, I just wanted to share my sweetest loves with all of you, and to let you know that now and always I am an incredibly blessed woman, and I know that, and that shall ever be so.

My family, my sweetest loves. I am so happy and blissy in this moment I can barely breathe. Oh me…