Some days come to a close and we have not been able to do all that we might ordinarily have done. Such is this day for me. Rachel came over and we had a lovely time together, but I have felt a sadness creeping in, a hard thing happened with someone I care about, and I am feeling overwhelmed with all that I am going through and all that needs to be done before the end of the year. I am feeling weary and teary and unable to cope. Such days come, and they pass, but tonight I have decided to just take it easy.
This 365 day journey on this blog isn’t as easy for me this time around, coming just on the heels of the hurricane, losing my little Delilah, and now dealing with the bloodclot in my leg which has frightened me badly. Most days I cope, today was harder. Today there were things I needed to get done and couldn’t, today my heart is heavy and I am afraid.
I will leave it here then. I will continue to try to do my best but right now I don’t know what that is going to look like. Please forgive me and bear with me as I find my way. I am trying my best and some days it just feels too hard.
I go back to the doctor tomorrow to have my leg checked and medication changed. I’m kind of afraid. Tomorrow may be another short, touch base post. I can make no promises just now…
