It is the long awaited Halloween. Since the days we were getting through the hurricane and families came with their little children to help me, to check on me, I decided that for the first time, in nearly 2 decades, I would have pumpkins on the porch, and little decorative lights on the windows, and a big bowl of candy at the ready. I even bought a big necklace, a strand of pumpkins that light up, to wear as I gave out the treats, but that was all before Delilah got hurt, and now I am afraid.

I was up off and on all night with Delilah, by 6:30 I was doing all her eye drops and pain medication and I took her out to the potty and we went back to sleep for a little bit. I got up about 8:30, got both pugs out and fed them and gave Delilah more medication. I sat here with my coffee weary and bleary-eyed and a little teary and anxious. Now I am afraid what I am going to do when the darling little trick or treaters come to the door if I am having to take care of Delilah or in the middle of trying to get them out to the potty. Now it all seems a worrisome chore instead of all the fun I have imagined and looked forward to. I am praying it will all go well. I have looked forward to seeing the little children dressed up and to give them candy. My first Halloween in nearly 20 years where I wasn’t hiding in the back of the house with the porch lights out. I wanted to embrace it this year, and now I am just tired and afraid.

And I have only a few minutes to put a blog post up. I have to administer more meds at noon, jump in the shower and dress, walk the dogs, give Delilah her pain medication and Noni is coming so I can go to therapy. I badly need it and I missed last week because I had been in the emergency room with Delilah for hours through the night before and up and out to the eye specialist vet by 8 and I couldn’t leave her. I still can’t leave her. I will go to therapy, and then go vote, and then pick up more pain medication for Delilah and come home and give yet more medication and walk the dogs and get ready for the trick or treaters to come. I am praying it all goes well. I hate that all the fun I have looked forward to is now something I am dreading.

But on I go, off to do the noon meds. I’m sorry not to be able to say more but this is going to be a very busy, overwhelming day. Please hold a good thought, and I hope you have a happy, safe, fun Halloween.

Trick or treat! And may all your little ones be safe, human and animal companions. I hope it is a happy night. I so want to be able to enjoy it…