Pugsley upon arrival, wearing his “Thundershirt” for anxiety,
which quickly came off and he hasn’t had to wear it since. He
is snuggled here with his wee tiny sister Penny. Both had been
so terribly abused, and yet they are pure love, tender, and sweet
beyond words. I live in a sanctuary filled with angels, blessed
with God’s grace, surrounded by angels everywhere, and spirits
of every size and shape bringing protection and joy and love, and
in the midst of it all here I am, blessed beyond measure, with
endless love to give. Charity begins at home. The love we are
all creating here we are sending out to each and every one of
you, every single day of our lives. When you take a breath in,
a deep, full, cleansing breath, on the inbreath feel a sweeping
of a warm, pure, pink light, warming you all the way down to
your toes and filling you with tremendous joy. Walk out into
the world lighter than air. Now remember you are never alone.
We are always there sending out love…
There’s a reason everybody calls me Mama Maitri!
In 1999 I left a 25 year marriage to begin a spiritual journey that I would little understand, be devastated by, everything I thought I knew torn asunder, everything that held me up ripped out from under my feet, and I spent a dozen years in deep seclusion. Oddly, while it was very painful and frightening and confusing time, the seeds were planted for the life I was supposed to live, though it would be years before I could understand the meaning of it all. I had named my little cottage Dragonfly Cottage, both because the dragonfly had become my totem animal (In Native American spirituality he leads us out of the darkness and into the light, he is a sign of transformation.). Every place I have lived since in these tumultuous years of having to move, being more and more afraid, and not understanding how I could go on, I sat in the little cottage cottage I lived in in the mid-2000’s. I had come to the end. I could take no more. I was ready to leave this earth and the unrelenting pain and terror I felt every day of my life. But then…. Oh great mercy of God, then a miracle occurred.
And when he was ready to go, when he had taught me that what I was considering doing was not only selfish, but was wasting my God given life, and that we all had lessons to learn and to share and love to give and a path to follow in our own lives. THIS, he told me, was our true path, the very act of finding it, and then to fight through all circumstances, doubts of others, self-doubt and just keep putting one foot in front of the other, no matter how many years it took, until the day that we woke up and said, “Yureka, that’s IT!” (Or some words to that effect!) “It’s time to get started!
Started, for me, has been the acknowledgement that that was true, even if I had no idea how it would come about. The process took 2 disastrous cross country moves, having dangerous encounters, meeting amazing teachers, and finally, the last years, finding these little pugs who are truly my angels and my teachers and the little loves that shore me up. They will be with me for the rest of my days.
Nothing better than the company of a dog… or in your case, a LOT of dogs.
Joyce
http://joycelansky.blogspot.com
Good luck with your plans! =)
Also wanted to say, about the prayer of St. Francis, that’s what the world needs more of nowadays – selfless.
How exciting, I look forward to hearing more about your journey! You reminded me of this:
We shall not cease from our exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time
~ T. S. Eliot
Thank you all so much. You are all so kind and I feel your gentle, loving hearts and hold you close in my prayers.
And Jenny, the T.S. Eliot quote means more than I can say. Thank you dear one…
May love light your way, each of you…
Maitri ♥