The Experiment: Day 62 ~ Holding The Space…

I am very quiet tonight, in fact I have been very quiet all day. I am trying to process life right now. Hard things have happened, there will be no family Thanksgiving tomorrow, I will be here with the pugs, and I am offering all the support that I can, and, well, I can’t really talk about it but it is a hard, sad time. I am okay personally, but one very dear to me is not. This, too, is life, and it would be a terribly hard time any time, but seems harder and sadder right now as we just start into the holiday season. I have been sitting with this all day. I want so badly to wave a magic wand and make everything okay but I can’t. Seeing someone you love suffer is unbearable, you would take it on for them if you could but you can’t. I can just be here, day by day, and do what I can, and sometimes that is just a phone call and sometimes texting and often through the last week my dear one has been here with me. This is life right now. It’s hard to search for happiness when the one you love is heartbroken and devastated. Right now I am searching for a way to bring as much gentleness and peace to the situation as I can. That will have to be enough.

We want to make everything alright for those we love but sometimes we just have to sit, silently, and wait. Be ready to be there for them at a moment’s notice, day or night, and hold the space for their suffering. Right now I am holding the space.

I hope that you are well tonight dear one, I hope if you celebrate Thanksgiving tomorrow it will be all that you dreamed of, and if you are alone I hope that you find something in your day to bring you moments of peace, and ease, and a little happiness where you can find it.

I am here, right now, looking out the window on this dark November night, wondering when the light will come again. These days the darkness comes early and lasts long. Spring is far away.

I will close the windows now, draw the pugs close, and find something to pass the time. This, too, shall pass.


The Experiment ~A 365 Day Search For Truth, Beauty &
Day 1 ~ Introduction To The Project
“Do or do not. There is no try.”

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  1. Sending you love, Maitri. I’m sorry for the pain of your family difficulties. Sending you and yours hugs and good thoughts.

    • Thank you so much dear Lisa, I truly appreciate your kind thoughts. It is a sad day today for sure, but this, too, will pass, we will all get through, and tomorrow is another day. I hope you and your husband have a lovely Thanksgiving. A gentle hug for you dearheart…

  2. That’s so darned hard at any time, worrying about loved ones. But at a special time like Thanksgiving it’s all the harder. My heart goes out to you and your family. And I’m grateful for the puggles who snuggle joyfully beside the human they loved best in the world.

    • Thank you so much Cathryn, and yes it is especially hard that this all happened just before the holiday, it makes it even harder somehow, and then Christmas is so close. Oh me. I appreciate you being here with me, I am having my coffee this morning with my pugs snuggled all in close around me and it is a comfort. I know you Canadians have already had your Thanksgiving, but I hope you have a wonderful day honey. May you be blessed…

  3. I hope whatever you and your loved ones are struggling with resolves itself in a timely and good way. It is never fun to watch loved ones go through tough times, but it does happen…love and good wishes for you and yours…🙃

    • Thank you so much Tina honey, this is something that will take a great deal of time but as with all things in life one day this, too, will pass. One must just be a loving support for the one going through it all. I don’t know if you are in the US but if you are I hope you have a lovely Thanksgiving. Blessings to you and yours…

  4. Maitri,
    I’m sending you lots of love and hugs – and, of course, the kisses.

  5. Thinking of you… and sending much love to you and all your family. x

  6. I’m so sorry to hear this Maitri. When our loved ones are suffering we cannot underestimate the value of just being available to listen and reassuring them of our love for them. But, you know this already. It does not necessarily make it less painful in the moment but it definitely strengthens our bond with them in the long run.

    • Thank you so much for writing Joan honey, it is a terribly sad and hard time, and as someone said to me today, “We’re only as happy as our most unhappy kid.” Amen. As mothers we would rather take on the pain than see them suffer but we can’t. And it’s a long road ahead, so I will be here loving her through this one day, one moment at a time.

      I know you all already had your Thanksgiving in October but I hope you had a wonderful day today…


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