A 365 day journey is a long, winding road with no end in sight. Some days I get up gung-ho, ready to face the day and accomplish new tasks, dream new dreams, chart my course and begin taking steps down a road that I believe is going to lead me to the new life that I imagine is coming. Other days, like today, I feel a little lost, uncertain, not depressed, just one of those days where you need to rest in place, where nothing new will happen, where you are okay with staying where you are and not projecting one more moment into the future. This is a day when I cannot move forward, it is a day when I have a lot on my mind and in my heart, where my deepest concerns are for others, not myself, when I need to step off the path and float and drift and dream for awhile. This is an interlude.
Time out of time, a place where I am not searching for happiness nor feeling sad. It is a grace note on a musical score, I am stepping out of the room for a moment.
I am here but I am like a frog on a lily pad in a stream watching the world go by. I have few words. I am just resting, waiting, watching. I imagine that I will be back tomorrow carrying today’s secrets in my heart, and I will be seeking all that I hope will one day be mine, and I will try to be awake and alive in each moment, making new plans, dreaming new dreams. But not today. Today is an interlude, a grace note, a place between the whiles. Forgive me dear friend. I shall return.
The Experiment ~A 365 Day Search For Truth, Beauty &
Happiness: Day 1 ~ Introduction To The Project
“Do or do not. There is no try.”
Yoda
Much love to you Maitri ❤️
Thank you so much dear Jean, and love to you as well…
I seem to be feeling similarly…
Today I have not left the house, and have only left my room briefly. It’s the first full day of my Moonflow, and I am so grateful that I can Be Still and Rest, instead of having to get up and move in less than nurturing ways.
Tomorrow, I will do. Today, I am happy just to be. 🙂
Ah Sweet Victoria. I so understand. I’m way past the moonflow days but we never forget what those days were like. I’m glad that you have been very gentle with yourself and are resting. Tomorrow will bring what it brings, just take care of yourself. I am sending you so much love and a gentle warm hug. Be well Mama…
My dear, there is nothing to forgive. we all need these quiet interludes, where we make no plans, don’t take stock, just be wherever we can feel most at ease. And not ask more of ourselves. a day for looking up at the clouds and watching them drift, unravel, reform, float away. a day for being a cloud ourselves, just soft and gently formless and reforming. there’s nothing you have to prove to us, or to anyone. being yourself is the best gift you can give us. in all your biorhythms, emptiness, fullness, upbeat, downbeat, straddling worlds, tucked in and snoozing.
xo
ka
xo
Thank you darling Ka… yes these days are essential, they are days of quiet growth as well as rest, time to piece together all that we have been learning, to let it soak in gently, emptiness, fullness, everything. Thank you so much, honey, for being here with me on this journey. You are a bright star in my night sky, you light the path before me.
I love you Ka…
M. xo
I love how you have the courage to be honest about yourself to us. Much love, Marge:)
Thank you so much Marge for your kind comment, and being honest is all I know how to do, it’s all we can do, offer what we have from an open heart. And I so appreciate you being here with me on this journey, it means the world to me. Blessings to you dear one, have a lovely day…
Sending hugs. x You write so beautifully.
Thank you so much Jenny, you are very kind, and I am sending hugs back to you as well… 🙂