The Experiment: Day 47 ~ I Am Listening, I Am Following My Heart, I Am Trusting…

Day 47 of 365 days. Everything inside of me is changing. I don’t really know how to explain it and I don’t have to. Some kind of miracle is occurring. I know that to be a fact. I don’t know who I’ll be at the end of this 365 day journey but I know this, the end of the journey will not be the end but a whole new beginning. I called this An Experiment because I had no idea what was going to happen, or how, I just knew I had to do a handful of things. Show up everyday, be accountable to myself and others. Be open to the belief that change was possible. Every day, no matter how hard it was, I needed to find something that was positive, in which I found even a moment of happiness, an ounce of joy, in which I felt at peace, maybe not all day but I was willing to accept those moments of wonder that came to me and to let them be enough for that day. And I had to record the journey in the best way I could. This would not be a linear journey so much as a succession of happenings, each one like a bead on a string, day by day, bead by bead, I would be building a whole new life. In the beginning I hoped it would be true. Then I slowly began to believe it might be true. Finally I began living this truth as if it were a fait d’accompli. Doors and windows have begun opening in my life in every direction.

How do I do this each day? I sit quietly, and I listen. Most of us are talking and thinking so fast, so much, we are drowning out that still small voice within. That’s what I call it. You may call it intuition. It doesn’t matter what you call it but it’s there inside of each of us and we have to get still and quiet to hear it. Instead of running hundreds of scenarios in my head every day of what might happen I just started quietly listening to my heart and that still small voice and I noticed what was happening, in a single moment, or an hour, or a day. And then, whatever comes, comes. A word, an image, a single thought emerges, and I trust it. I have begun to trust the process. I no longer look at 365 days spread out before me like a path that seemed so long I couldn’t see the end of it, like trying to see to the other side of the ocean. I just stand on the beach feeling how good my toes feel in the sand with the waves washing over my feet. It is a moment, it is eternal, it is  now, and now is all I need.

Listen. Follow your heart. Trust. If you do those three things you can accomplish anything. I truly believe that. I believe it so much that tonight I have sat here and begun to set a goal to accomplish something, not at the end of 365 days, but sooner. I now see that I can accomplish many goals along the way. This experiment is a river flowing forward into eternity. I have slipped into the river in my funky little bright yellow boat filled with pugs and I have set sail on a course I will never veer from. I am so thrilled, so happy, so in awe in this moment that I am content to just be here now and enjoy the ride. What will the end look like? I don’t care, and it doesn’t really matter. Things are changing so much each and every day there is no way I could imagine what it all might lead to, nor do I need to know. I’ll tell you exactly what I feel like. I feel like the thousand petals of the lotus opening in slow motion. I don’t know what I will look like when that thousandth petal opens, I only need to feel the sense of awe I feel each day as a new petal opens. It is magnificent.

You can do this too. We can all do this. There’s nothing complicated about it, it doesn’t cost anything, not in dollars and cents, the only thing you have to do, like in the theater, is to have a willing suspension of disbelief. Can you close your eyes, hold my hand, and leap? You know what I’m going to say now… If not, why not? If not now, when?  It’s time, and it feels so good.

With deepest love and affection…

 


The Experiment ~A 365 Day Search For Truth, Beauty &
Happiness: 
Day 1 ~ Introduction To The Project
“Do or do not. There is no try.”
Yoda

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Comments

  1. I love this post Maitri. This is such a good teaching for me, to go with the flow, be in the moment. Your comment about your little yellow boat going on the river reminded me of this print I bought from Molly Hahn, the Buddha Doodles artist. It’s a long link, but if you click on it and ask Google to ‘go to’ it will show you the image from her online shop.

    https://cdn.shopify.com/s/files/1/0235/6341/products/8x10_Mayaangleou_mockup_Transparent_8x10_d4918b61-3a79-4ada-b8c1-106f1acabd2a_grande.png?v=1487633895

    • Good Morning Sweet Joan,

      I’m so glad that you liked it. And yes, my little yellow boat! 🙂 I love to think of that. And I love Molly’s Buddha Doodles and I looked at your link and that is just darling, it must be so much fun having it up in your house. I hope you are having a lovely November. It’s just perfect here…

      Hugs,

      Maitri

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