The Experiment: Day 12 ~ I’m Just Sitting Here, Like This Meerkat…

Lord have mercy I am sitting here, just sitting here. I’d like you to imagine that I’m thinking deep thoughts, or perhaps this is just a pregnant pause, although when I looked that up the Urban Dictionary called a pregnant pause “The first cousin of awkward silence.” This feels like an awkward silence, to be sure. I guess I’ll just have to go with that.

You see my plan is to do the blog post first thing in the morning over coffee so that I have it done early in the day, don’t have to wade through the hours worrying about it, and have that little lift you get from completing a task right off the bat! That wasn’t going to happen today.

Today I got the dogs out and fed, got their meds, took mine, made coffee, and sat down here with my giant yellow mug the color of sunshine and smiled at the computer. Yessirree I was on my way. This 365 day experiment was just a dandy thing, thought I, and then I stared at the computer. I can just about guarantee you that the look on my face as I stared at the computer was very nearly that, maybe almost exactly as that of the meerkat. Maybe that’s why, after searching through thousands of images off and on for hours until I was going crazy (or one might say even crazier than usual) when I found the meerkat I kind of sat with my mouth hanging open staring at him. I felt like I was looking in a mirror. That’s the one! I thought, and here I am. It is 10:16 p.m., I have just finally eaten some dinner, and the pugs have given up and fallen asleep all around me. They are snoring loudly. They want to be in our big chair and I want to start my new book — I finished Glennon Doyle Melton’s Carry On, Warrior this afternoon, I am starting her Love Warrior tonight, I am just in love with her writing — but I am determined not to miss a single day of the 365 day challenge I’ve set myself if that means I have to come on with a meerkat and an awkward silence, mumble a few things, and hope for the best.

We all have these days, right? And I suppose in the whole cosmic scheme of things I could just skip a day and pick it up the next day BUT I CAN’T DO THAT, IT WOULD BE A DISASTER! You see my bipolary brain can be like a herd of runaway ponies. If I take one day off they will head right out the door in another direction entirely, so I am staying the course, in this rather embarrassing fashion, and I am getting this post up and out or BUST.

Ah, wait a minute!!! I think I might have something for you. Yes, after having done a thorough search on youtube I have found a whole host of videos on meerkats and this one shows adorable meerkat babies and it’s short! You’re welcome everyone!

I thought I should at least try to be educational and gracious if meerkats don’t make you smile I don’t know what will. My “search for happiness” may take me down some questionable side roads, but I stand by my meerkats. They can’t all be deep. A big part of this project is showing up everyday, and here I am. Or I should say here we are. Enjoy the meerkats. I’ll be back tomorrow with something a little meatier. I hope. But it’s 11:00 p.m. now and my ability to make sense shuts down at 11.

I am sending you all hugs and love and a handful of baby meerkats for your viewing pleasure. Again, you’re welcome!


The Experiment ~A 365 Day Search For Truth, Beauty &
Day 1 ~ Introduction To The Project
“Do or do not. There is no try.”

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  1. Whew, thank goodness you have THOSE DAYS. It’s pretty intimidating to contemplate daily blogging for 365…gulp…days! But I know you know what I know. In your life you, as I have in mine, have written a river of words, a cascade, an ocean. And it’s OK on any given day to NOT write ONE word. I’m on a major, intimidating project just now. I’m overwhelmed. I also know I’ll get to my goal. But some days, WHAM, I’m overwhelmed, and that’s OK. And it’s OK for you too.

    • Oh Lordy Moses Cathryn I have MANY a meerkat day, in fact, I am so tickled with the whole meerkat idea that I think from now on when I’m having a CRAP day and no more than 3 decent words in my head I’m just going to deem it a Meerkat Day and just do my best to get SOMETHING out. It’s all about momentum. I’m not trying to be Virginia Woolf here, I am establishing a daily practice to both try to keep my head above the waters I can drown in, and try to change something in my brain so it looks for happiness and not all gloom and doom. Some days it might be meerkats, other days it will be like the post yesterday which I was particularly proud of, “Be In The Damned Pictures!” but I will keep on keeping on no matter what. I figure if I can do this every day, even if it’s a meerkat day and I just get out a few random thoughts, I will be retraining my brain, reminding myself that there is happiness in the world and you just have to keep looking for it. And yes we will be overwhelmed. It’s okay to be overwhelmed, we just have to keep showing up. And we’re both doing that. Good luck with your new project, I can’t wait to hear more about it! Love you honey….

  2. I really admire you, Maitri, you are so real!

    • Thank you so much Marge honey, you are very kind and that means a lot to me. Thanks for being here with me, even on a “Meerkat Day.” 🙂

  3. Don’t we all have our meerkat moments‽
    3 kisses

    • Yes Margaretha! We all have meerkat moments, and sometimes we have Meerkat DAYS! But the whole point of this project for me is to keep on keeping up, keep showing up and being here under all circumstances, whether it’s a Meerkat Day or a day when I am able to write a post I feel really proud of. They all matter. I am retraining my brain with this project, or I’m trying to. I love you Margaretha, you are my darling friend, and most definitely
      *3 kisses*… 🙂

  4. Whatever you write is good because it’s honest and human. And the meerkats…so adorable…thanks for my daily smile. And I can so identify with that picture…that’s how I’ve felt for a couple of weeks.

    • Thank you so much Sheila honey, I appreciate your kind words and I’m so happy the meerkats made you smile. 🙂 And oh dear, Meerkat WEEKS, that’s hard. I hope things lift and lighten up for you, at least a little, I am wishing you days of peace and ease and sending my love…

  5. What a great post, you made me smile. And I love meerkats! Hugs to you and the pugs. x

    • Thank you so much Jenny, I’m glad the meerkats made you smile, I love them, they are my new definition for the hard days. They will now be “Meerkat Days” and hopefully that will help me smile a little. With this project I am trying to retrain my brain to look for the light, for something to make me smile, at least a little bit on the hard days. I refuse to live in gloom and doom, I’m trying to find my way out of the abyss, and this project of blogging everyday is really helping. I’ll be here, Meerkat Days and All, and I’m so glad you are here with me, it means so much. And the puggeries send kisses to YOU! 😀

  6. So adorable! And, so funny that they are part of a ‘mob’! Thanks for sharing Maitri.

    • Hello Joan honey, thank you so much for being here! And yes, I think I have joined the Meerkat Mob. On hard days I will keep showing up and the meerkats will help me get through. Good thing, being part of a mob! And I hope you have a wonderful day and get to see a picture of your grandbaby on that calendar! 🙂

  7. keep your sense of humor, when all else fails… ha ha ha

    meerkats indeed — note KA is embraced in these little beings

    ME KA !!!


    • Oh darling Ka, I think through the years my sense of humor is the only thing that saved me, and now that I’m part of the meerkat clan it will help even more. I will keep on keeping on even if I have that meerkat look on my face I will show up and say what I can say. At this point in my life just showing UP is lifesaving for me and helps propel me through the days. So on a hard day I will just think, Hmm, it’s just a Meerkat Day, we can DO this! Onwards and Upwards dear sister! 🙂

  8. Oh my gawd. Meerkats are adorable. My fave thing is when miss Sybil does the meerkat thing, standing up on her hind legs. Too cute!

    I’m really glad you were able to keep your appointment with yourself today. xo

    • Thank you so much sweet Effy and yes, meerkats are adorable and so is Miss Sybil. I love that cat and I love to see her playing with Sookie! That is just the cutest thing ever! And yes, I have to keep showing up here, I NEED the momentum to help me move forward in my life, I am fighting hard to stay ahead of depression or at least have an easier day when it comes. But there will be Meerkat Days and that’s okay. Thanks for coming Effy, it means a lot to me… <3

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