Tropical Storm Michael, downgraded from Hurricane Michael, is on the way. I was awake a little after 6 and by a little after 7 had the dogs out, grateful that the rain had not started yet. They have gone back to sleep snuggled in around me in beds and soft blankets, snoring, as I sip my coffee and watch out my studio windows.
I wanted to get a blog post up early so if we lose power I will have done it. If there is no post tomorrow it will be because we don’t have power and I will pick up the thread here as soon as we do. This storm is supposed to pass through quickly and be gone by tonight.
My dear friend Katya made it through Hurricane Michael as it hit Florida yesterday and by the afternoon it had passed through. They had lost power but they were okay. I was so relieved to get a text from her. It has been 4 weeks of friends texting friends because hurricanes were coming, or here, or just passed, and how bad was the damage? and dealing with no power and the aftermath and then another hurricane on the way. I look so forward to peaceful fall days with no threat of storms.
Therapy was good yesterday. One of the things we talked about was how, besides all the physical damage here from Hurricane Florence, people have been deeply impacted on a mental/emotional level, and if you had challenges in this area already these have been difficult days. I have felt unmoored, like I haven’t been able to get my bearings. Part of me is having a hard time feeling safe in the world, fears are arising around every area of my life, I have lost confidence in myself. I am supposed to teach my first class Sunday night since the hurricane hit here and I will as long as I have power but I am afraid. I loved doing it, now I fear it. I will just show up and do the best I can. I will ease my way back in. I hope my students will be patient with me as I re-enter the space.
The sky is murky and dark. Trees and branches are swaying in the breeze. Whatever weather is coming is on the way. The people who were supposed to be here today to do work outside called to say that the first day that it isn’t raining they will be here, my daughter Rachel texted me Good Morning, I am praying for breaks in the rain to get the dogs out but know there could be hours and hours where this will not be possible.
There was a moment of howling wind, the Japanese maple’s branches are whipping about wildly, I will stop here and get this up while I still have power. I hope you are safe wherever you are…
Infinite Compassion: A 365 Day Journey~
Day 1 – Peeling The Layers Of The Heart…
“We must continue to open in the face of tremendous opposition.
No one is encouraging us to open and still we must
peel away the layers of the heart.”
Chogyam Trungpa, Rinpoche
Breathing with you, Maitri.
Thank you darling Beverley…
Maitri,
I send you feelings of peace and wellbeing. I cannot imagine how hard these last few weeks have been for you.
I am looking forward to having you back on Sunday. Whatever you have to share, I will gratefully receive. Having you back in this place you created is more important than anything else. ❤️
Keeping you in my prayers. 🙏🏼
Thank you Maggie honey, I am afraid but I will surely be there. It is so important to me to be with all of you. It will be an “After The Storm Re-Entry Class” for me. I hope you all with bear with me as I re-enter this sacred space. My therapist said to me yesterday, when I was talking about it, “So, you are afraid but you are going to do it anyway.” And I said “Yes.” To which she responded (having seen me the last 3 years through terrible times) “Do you have any idea how big this is, how far you’ve come? You are afraid but you are showing up. That is huge.” Perhaps there is a lesson, a teaching, in this too. I am hoping that what I have to offer Sunday night will be of value. Surely I will be there with my whole heart…
And we will be there with open hearts.
That’s why this is such a beautiful sweet thing that happens on Sunday nights… 🙂
Maitri,
We all anxiously await your return. You got this. Just like falling off a horse. You can do it.
We will be there to receive whatever you feel up to doing. I have a feeling being there, will actually be therapeutic for you. You showing your stresses that you are the boss.
Gently hugs,
Lauren
Thank you so much dear Lauren, it will be good to be back…
And a gentle hug to you too honey….
Hello lovely, lots of chaos in peoples lives right now – you are not alone in this….I had to get out a piece of FLUORITE crystal which is great for creating a space of inner peace while your surroundings are out of control. While everything in my life has been upturned and turned up side down this crystal has afforded me intense healing on all levels – emotional, mental, physical, spiritual. It has uprooted the various thing that have tried to take hold and make me unable to cope. Anything that is bound to affect you on any level can be cleared by this crystal, its that powerful. This energy is due to the lunation cycle on an astrological level and lots of people are having nowhere to dock their boats so to speak while the landings are washed away. Think of getting out your fluorite if you have some luv it will keep you balanced admist the chaos. Lots of ancestral wounds are coming up and injuries of the sacred feminine are up for review to be processed integrated and released. Ceres the asteroid of demeter is also carrying this libran astrological signature. It will be a wild ride for several weeks, the fluorite is keeping me stable and able to make good well thought out solid decisions which under such situations such as this would have been nearly impossible
Dear Leeanne, interestingly I have a flourite bracelet I always wear. I agree it is very soothing…
Maitri, it looks like Wilmington may be OK through Michael, without too much loss of power or heavy rain (at least according the radar map that I looked at this afternoon).
I’m looking forward to having you back on Sunday night — all will be just fine. We’re all showing up for different reasons and motivations, with different writing and self-exploration interests, but your guidance as a teacher is special.
Thank you Lisa and yes it wasn’t as bad as we thought it would be but Noni was surprised how much windier it was here at my house than where she lives downtown. The trees were really blowing and it was nervous making because there are so many trees back here with huge limbs that are broken and dangling from Hurricane Florence and come over my deck and the back corner of the house. All day today I have been watching them blowing in the wind but oddly the branches that did come down in the yard were green branches, not the dead ones hanging. Hard to figure it out. I think it has passed us now thank goodness.
And I am really looking forward to seeing you and all Sunday night. It is time for me to return and though I am nervous I am looking forward to it too. I think I just need to get back in the swing of things and once I get past this week’s class it will be easier. Thank you so much for your kind words honey…